Ya Allah..please give me the strength to push on.....

Hmm...today, memang down sangat. I looked into the freezer compartment and counted my EBM stock....it looks like it will only last until tomorrow and by the weekend, i have to start supplementing with FM again :o(

Here's the maths...from 7am to 9pm daily, i need to have at least 10-12 packs for my twins. Each day, i can only get 3 packs of 120ml each. So i need 3-4 days just to build up enough stock for ONE DAY. Memang depressing when i think about it. But everyday i pray that Allah give me the strength and determination to push on. Keep on pumping eventhough i don't get that much.

Persevere, persevere, persevere...........

Sikit sikit lama lama jadi bukit???

Stok susu yg tak seberapa. Jgn tertipu..tak penuh pun compartment tu, ada benda lain kat bawah heheh

Haa..ni la dia stok yang i sedang berhempas pulas nak build up....berpeluh peluh. Ye la, kita bukan jenis yang meriah susu. Tapi takpe...perseverance..and the hope that my babies will get the best from me, eventhough i have to make a few sacrifices along the way. At least they will get some breastmilk if not exclusively.

Am continuing with my Shaklee supplements. For me, after taking the supplements, takde la my milk supply melimpah ruah, but it does wonders to my energy level. Plus with twins and lack of complete nutritional meal 3x day, i can't afford to get sick. So the supplements are keeping me going. And it seems to be working, Alhamdulillah. Memang worth it! Memang highly recommended for breastfeeding mothers, whether to boost the milk supply, or simply to make sure that your body is getting enough nutritions to keep going.

Yesterday was one of those "days"..where everything seems not to be going as well...pump pun dapat sikit je, twins asyik meragam, badan penat semacam, banyak kerja rumah tak sempat buat..bla bla bla. Tapi Alhamdulillah, gagahkan juga badan dan kuatkan semangat. Nasib baik i still have someone to help watch over the twins. Bole la buat kerja lain......

Here we are!!!!

Haaa...these are my lovely twins....Ayra Jasmine (left) and Arslan Yusuf (right). This is them just before their morning bath.

Ayra on the swing

Mummy's handsome boy!

Back to the same old routine......

The long Malaysia Day weekend is over and here i am, back to the same old routine. Hmmm dah tak kerja pun ada Monday blues jugak???? Ni monday blues yang lain.....still better than monday blues kalau kerja hehee.

We went to Kuantan for a quick weekend getaway..memang quick. Mana taknya...sampai sampai dah petang, boss decided to take a nap instead of taking poor Iris to the pool/beach. Tau tau dah malam, went out for dinner, balik hotel tidur and the next morning, breakfast, check out and back to KL. Nak ambik gambar pun tak sempat! Tu dia....i can sum up our itinerary all in a sentence! But ok la...can't complain. At least we did went somewhere over the weekend.

Today, i'm continuing with my "plan". Entahla kalau menjadi....but i'm still pressing on. Hopefully adala rezeki my twins ni. Supplement pun lupa nak ambik over the weekend, hmmm...

Actually its good that the old routine is back...at least i don't "mengelat" too long....

My love-hate relationship with breastfeeding

I've had this since i had Iris 3 years ago. And now with the twins, i'm going through that whole experience again. I know, i know, people said that its supposed to get easier with your second one because of experience bla bla bla...but not me. It a whole new experience for me this time...what with the twins. If 3 years ago i didn't manage to exclusively breastfeed because i was working and my milk supply has always been "ngam ngam", this time though i'm no longer working, but i'm having 2 mouths to feed and with my milk supply...its an uphill battle.

Unfortunately i'm not one of those with "success stories " with "i managed to get 10oz in one pumping session" person. In a "good" session (that is if i haven't emptied my B for 4-5 hours straight), i'll be lucky to get 4-5oz. But if i religiously pump every 3 hrs, as per the breastfeeding bible, i'll only get 3ish oz per session. How la?????

Early this morning, i had a eureka moment and have devised a plan. I won't tell what is the plan yet though...let me test it out for this one week and shall see if it works. Kalau success baru i will divulge the details k!

Besides that, have also been taking Shaklee supplements for the last 1 month. Dah jadi member dah pun......itu pun because i think it'll be worth it. Ye la, ambik supplement ni kena la for the long run, baru la nampak effectnya. Ye tak?

I will talk a little bit more about my breastfeeding struggle and Shaklee supplements in my next entry ok!

A new chapter begins....

It feels strange...after 14 years working in the fast paced corporate world, rushing to the office every morning, countless deadlines to meet and bosses to please, late nights and weekends, being confined to the walls of home seemed strange. Every now and then, whenever i can, i will catch a glimpse out of the bedroom window (overlooking the SPRINT highway), watching rush hour traffic, office workers making their way to work....exactly what i was still doing up until 3 months ago.

My days now revolve around the twins....bath them, feed them, change them, feed them again and again and again. For the next 1 month, i'm lucky to have a relative staying over to help. After that, it'll just be the twins and yours truly. Am bracing myself for that....i will be taking care of the twins ALONE 24/7, 365 days (well, not exactly...except evenings and weekends when hubs is around). Oh well, i am their MOTHER kan?

Hence, a new chapter in my life begins. As a full time stay at home mum, taking care of the twins, with no fixed income. That's another scary aspect of my life which comes with this new chapter....living in KL on a single income. Hmmm.....will just try it out for a few months and will see if i need to go back to work due to financial commitments. Only time will tell........

Alamak, AJ dah bangun....feeding time folks!

I better get started with this!

OMG...it takes forever for an IT illiterate person like me to start blogging. Until now, i still can't figure out how to change my blog template, so i'm just gonna use the current one temporarily until i finally manage to figure this damn thing out.

Pathetic!